Recently I have finally started to work out what my purpose is! It has taken me longer than some to reach a conclusion about this and shorter than others. Some people never find out what it is and live life aimless wandering between experiences rather bemused because life seems to be happening to them.
The great thing about purpose though, is that with purpose, we get to firmly grasp a steering wheel and drive through life; there may be turnings in the road, cul de sacs, pot holes and precarious twisting mountain passes to navigate. Though, the end of the journey and whether we find ourselves at destination is not pre ordained.
What we can know is that we are most likely to find our way there (or home) when we have a clear vision of where we would like to go.
Common sense really.
So why do most of us stay so determinedly to avoid our purpose? Why is it that we almost try everything we can ahead of acknowleging that we can do what makes fulfillment most likely? Even if there might be a few tough choices to make along the way. Is it chance that we set up our lives often in extraordinary ways with endless commitments, duties, responsibilities and emotional dependencies that almost completely prevent us from address our purpose whether it is our soul purpose (as a being in this lifetime), occupational purpose (as in what we would wish to do with our life) and our purpose as someone who can make a difference.
What then is our "purpose"?
"The reason for which something exists or is done, made, used..." says the dictionary. Essentially then, it is what we were created for. The problem is that we don't get it. Speaking for myself, I didn't get it. If I were to know what it is that would have been easy, but I didn't, not until just now. In fact it was while I was chopping onions with tears streaming down my face with the blade of my kitchen knife, cleanly severing slices apart with gleaming sharpness.
And here is the thing. We were created beautifully and imperfectly. We toil, suffer, fight, control, give up, spoil, love, lust after, hate, bore, divide and a million distractions mostly in order to maintain an impossible equilibrium. We attach significance to things, feelings, appearances, history and woundings and purpetuate our own suffering and often the suffering of those around us.
Yet we also have the keenest, crystal clear knowlege of how to live in full flow and easy of our purpose. I guess that sounds hard. Think of it this way though. Behind everything that gives us a moment of joy, a fleeting moment of fulfillment or even an inkling of how things could be better, there is a message. "Aha", it says, "I like this" or more accurately, "this is important to me. It means something so amazing, that it must be true that I can't have it more of the time." We tell ourselves that we aren't worthy enough to experience joy more. Even when we are experiencing it, we argue that it is too good to last.
Hence here is the thing. We are enjoyment "machines" with faulty programming, because our mind and ego interfere with what our heart feels and our soul knows (if you believe we have a soul). If we were only to do what truely gives us joy (rather than what hides away our pain) we would be living our lives fully and on purpose and we would be immediately aware of what it is. Your life purpose is built in. No one else's is yours and it is hard wired into you so much so that it actually takes more effort to avoid know it than it does to find out what it is.
Finding it is therefore easy and we are given so many clues and they are easy to follow. You can do this alone or with a witness in a hurry or over time and it doesn't matter how young, old, sick, healtlhy, sad, mad or bad you are.
1. Write out or type "What is my purpose?"
Spend an hour writing anything that comes into your head. After a while your mind will stop giving your wayward answers and your truth will begin to emerge. Don't give up even if what you are writing doesn't seem to make any sense. Just keep going and in the end your purpose will emerge. You know you are getting close to it, when you feel emotion arising. Trust me on this, you can write down a hundred bits of nonsense, but you will know it when you hit paydirt. A bit like my onion moment earlier.
2. Identify 10 things that have made you feel joyful (or if you are really stubborn 10 things that make you feel less miserable)
For each one keep asking yourself the question, "Why does this bring me joy?". Keep at it until all the half truths and deceptions vanish and then do it some more. Once your truth has really appeared (you will know), write down one word that represents the value to you of that which brings you joy. List these values out on a single piece of paper and then work out how much of the time you are honouring these values in your life.
3. This is the easiest one. Ask yourself "who am I? and "why am I here?" every night before you go to sleep and at the start of each day for a month.
Discovering your true life purpose can take time. It can turn your life upside down, but it needn't do either. In fact just finding out what it is will enable to begin changing your life. You might even need a bit of help moving your awareness of what your purpose is, to actually living it in practice. There will, no doubt, be plenty of reasons why not live it fully.
Why not give it a chance?
Adam
PS Mine is "to be in service to mankind by bringing healing, laughter and friendship unconditionally."